seriously i damn hate you! and myself.

oh gosh! it just ruined my mood.
didn't do what you'd promise me.
promises are meant to be broken huh?
you made me feel so happy, then turned me down the next moment. you just make me feel that you're not trying to understand me.
wth. i hate myself for being so vulnerable, so sensitive. i am not blaming you and i know it's not your fault.

so what song can best describes my feeling now?
Hate that I Love You by Rihanna feat. Ne-Yo

love is just so simple, yet complicated at times.
means what o?? i don't understand it either.

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
That's how much I love you (yeah)
That's how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I can't stand ya
Must everything you do
Make me wanna smile
Can I not like it for awhile
No...

[Ne-Yo:]
But you won't let me
You upset me girl
Then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget
That I was upset
Can't remember what you did

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it

[Rihanna:]
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long, that's wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
Girl, I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (ooh)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so...

[Ne-Yo:]
And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Sad and it's not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Rihanna:]
That's how much I love you
How much I need you
That's how much I need you
That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
And I hate that I love you sooo...
And I hate how much I love you boy (Hey)
I can't stand how much I need you (I can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah... ooh)
But I just can't let you go (But I just can't let you go, no)
And I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
And I hate that I love you so... so...

p/s: i'm actually exaggerating it. not that serious.
and i don't love him that deep i guess. ah. whatever. let the rain falls on me pls~ wake me up~

a hole inside my heart =(

p/s:
the picture of the cute little feet with a heart-shaped snow was from my cutie Laotian friends in US.
the picture of the tree was taken by me in US. kinda like it.