losing grip

i have been trying so hard to control my emotions
but i guess i always failed to do so
nothing would affects me that easily
except you

i'm no longer the best thing that happened to you
i don't deserve it
i know

the feelings are gone
and i couldn't grap it back
i can see it but i couldn't touch it
it feels so insecure
the feeling of losing something that you care the most is
definitely something you would not want to experience

i thought you are still with me
but actually i have lost you gradually

the feelings are gone
and there's no turning back
to fill back the emptiness of my heart

i'm losing grip