I'm torn into pieces

Behind These Hazel Eyes

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Gone Forever

I noticed that I've not been writing bout how I feel for the pass few months.

Maybe I was too happy that I didn't even have time to fill the blog up with all my happiness when I was with him. But this time, I came back, it is with more pain and hurts. Pathetically.

Probably it was me that have been always so naive and the fast self recovery process just kept me being temporarily optimistic and forgot bout the previous pain I've undergo.

Everything seems to go smoothly and so happily-ever-after, but unknowingly the hidden tumor was growing in size, and boom - it burst once again. This time with bigger magnitude. And more destructive.

I know tearing up for something or someone that will no longer come back is somehow useless in the end. But sometimes the emotion just strikes and I can't defeat it. Nothing can be done to change the fact or rewind back to the time when both of us can do more to compromise or be more tolerant.

You're gone forever.

Even though deep down inside my heart there's still a place for you.

But that wouldn't mean you would do the same for me.

Love can finds a way out. But not this time.

Maybe this is not the true love that is meant to be mine.

Sarcastically, I still heart you.