I suck huh

All these while,
I thought I am optimistic enough to cheer myself up.
I thought someone who is close to my heart will understand me.
But the fact is the person is someone who hurts me the most.
Paradox.

Why are you torturing me?
I should have think about other things instead of this.
It sucks.
Or I suck huh.

*Why am I always making notes bout all the sad stuffs. Sigh.