Fragile

Does that mean that he doesn't love you anymore

when he doesn't wanna care more?

It hurts.

Just that he didn't know that.

Or he doesn't even care bout knowing it or not.

p/s: My heart is fragile.

Enlighten me please!

Counting down, less than a week time, I will be back as a full time student and @er.
2 months semester break just passed by so quickly. Time flies like a rocket.
I still have not play hard enough, nor spend my holidays as meaningful as they should be.

Aih. When we are students, we complain bout studies.
When we are working adults, we complain bout our career and work.
What can satisfied us human? Errrrrr, particularly me.

I have been a very bad gal these days. At least I think I'm bad.
I compare a lot and I think it is really not fair for him.
But I just couldn't help it. Aren't all of us try to get something that is best for us?
We want the best and we want to be the best, aren't we?

Now I kinda pity my boy for always trying to live up to my expectations.
Sometimes I emo just because I saw some sweet couples or I read some romantic stuffs.
Damn stupid and superficial. I know I am.

I've tried to compromise.
And continuously reminding myself.
But after awhile, the same real me will be back.

So who am I deep down inside?
Someone enlighten me pls. Aih.

Part of the @ Family

On the second last day of NatCon 2009/2010, all of us sat in a circle in the parking lot.
This was the night that all of us spoke out our minds, without hiding any thoughts.
We were really frank to each other yet hoping that our words would not hurt anyone.

We hugged each other and we all cried together.
I haven't been having this kinda strong feelings since some time.
For being part of the big family, it makes me feel gratified.
Having so many brothers and sisters in a big family, I now know that I'm not alone on my @ journey.

I believe that no matter what will happen out LC, we will go through this together without leaving any member behind.
We will share our happiness and tears together as one.
We are all in one.
One AIESEC UM.

Love.

I suck huh

All these while,
I thought I am optimistic enough to cheer myself up.
I thought someone who is close to my heart will understand me.
But the fact is the person is someone who hurts me the most.
Paradox.

Why are you torturing me?
I should have think about other things instead of this.
It sucks.
Or I suck huh.

*Why am I always making notes bout all the sad stuffs. Sigh.

Naive

To you,
I'm always this ridiculous girl that throws tantrum randomly.
Always trying to make things complicated.
And making myself sad in the end.
It's all my fault.

Maybe I am that kind of girl.
That should keep myself in my own room.
Keep myself in my own world.

I try to give my best to you.
Hoping that someday I will not receive any disappointments.
But I guess I'm just to naive.
Thinking that I'm able to go into your world.
Thinking that we really can create our own happiness.
I guess I'm wrong.

I fell once.
I fell twice.
I fell thrice.
And now
I don't even able to count
how many times I have fallen.

I'm full of wounds.
Perhaps I'm just that toy
that you can replace anytime.

Naive.
Too naive.

Emo-ness back in action.

I'm back
with more emo-ness.

Emo quote of the day
" We don't have common topic." ~ Anonymous

Oh how cool.
After being together for 2 years and a month,
This is what you've finally managed to come out with.
Cool. I like it.

Love kills slowly?

Why people still fall for it when it actually kills?
Sigh.

I need a romantic guy.
Come rescue me.

Would you stop by to listen?

You don't even have the time to listen to me when I have the time to talk :((

Would you stop by to listen?

Because I miss you.

Joyeux Anniversaire! ♥

Dearie, Happy 2nd Anniversary.

We are like in a LDR. Hmm.
Didn't get to see or talk to you often.
Feel a bit distanced.

But yet I believe that all these challenges will make our love whole.
Just like a puzzle.

Love you.
I'm looking forward to the 3rd, 4th, 5th.............. anniversaries with you.

xoxo <3

Melancholy

once a loner
always a loner
i am an intrinsic melancholic
:(

even you wouldn't bother bout it.
okays. i understand.

sighed like 50 times today

wth is wrong with me
im now again engaging myself to this
whole lots of crap is happening
and i do not even know what im up to
wth that i really want
it's all bout self discovery
but i stupidly doubted that do i really exist in this world
this is really sad
sigh

Frappuccino

You're like the Mocha Frappuccino.
so addictive.
miss you <3

boring @ Starbucks

I am doing all these lame stuffs @ Starbucks.

Ahhhh. it's boring la.
i have piles of work to be done.
but i still do not have the mood to get it started.
obviously i haven't feel the pressure yet.
or i HAVE already feel stressful bout it? Darn.
ish. seriously need some help to push me to work.

something's wrong

I feel lonely again.

wth is wrong with me.
the insecurity reappears once again.
sigh.

something's wrong.
so wrong.

*you forgot to text me again. aiks.
have fun drinking with the guys. :/

ours

i understand that it's hard for us to be together at times.
not knowing what will happen always makes me feel insecure.
but i really hope to stop the time at this moment.
it might no be the sweetest moment ever.
but it will always be a moment which worth to be remembered.
our memories. ours.
hope it will last.
love.

xoxo

I wandered lonely as a cloud

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high over vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed---and gazed---but little thought

What wealth the show to me had brought:
For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

By : William Wordsworth.

Cuddle

I miss the cuddle.

On the same day a year ago.



It was cold outside, but warm inside.
It feels different if we do it again i guess.

Ish!!!

ish. after a whole day of tiring lectures,
this is what i got for dinner!
damn it. college food.
so discouraging T.T

Happy Birthday! Baboon <3

Happy Happy Happy Birthday to you!
You know how much I Love You <3
=))))))
xoxo